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Jan. 23rd, 2012 03:03 pm
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[livejournal.com profile] outdatedclocks has pointed out that my lower-back/hip problems, and my leg problems, are probably all related to the issues I have with my feet (lack of arches?). I've been making do with CVS-brand arch support pads, but they're not really enough, and I'd like to be able to do some cardio and upper-body stuff again, which I can't really now since my back hurts alllll the time. I'd been putting off talking to my doctor about it because of my terrible experiences with my last one...even though this one's shown no indication she's suddenly going to go all 'you're lying, you must be sneaking nachos in the middle of the night, fatty' on me. In fact, she'll probably be happy to help me out, since she wants me exercising before I go on T since I have a genetic disposition towards hypertension (dad's been hospitalized for it).

BTW, for those curious about the whole doctor saga, since I've posted it around a few places but not actually here at my main journal I think (since I just realized last night [livejournal.com profile] ocelotofdoom had never read the whole thing)...I submitted the whole thing to First, Do No Harm (excellent blog BTW) so you can read it here (it's so long I don't see a need to copy+paste it here P:)

Speaking of [livejournal.com profile] ocelotofdoom, we might be hanging out this weekend :D or rather, probably are. I am still working out the logistics, I think I'll stay on campus this weekend and take the train into the city. It would mean missing a therapy appointment, but I've skipped weeks in the past (or rather, therapist has cancelled on me) so I know it won't do any damage emotionally or to my comfort level with him.

Okay I really should go to class 6 u 9;;


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Sep. 15th, 2011 10:22 am
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SO remember how I said last post that I got to have the room to myself tonight?

My roommate's closet started...misbehaving. Every time I looked away I swear to god it was opening more. In small increments.

IT'S OPEN AGAIN A BIT FURTHER THAN IT WAS LAST NIGHT

Anyways I also thought I was hearing noises. So basically I freaked out, stayed up to 6 AM and slept restlessly with all the lights on and strange dreams.

In the end, I think probably roommate's mirror hanging on the inside of the door is somehow moving it veeeeerry slooooowly and the noises were almost definitely coming from my creaky old floor fan. But I'm super paranoid about these rooms after my experiences in my dorm room last year :c


Anyways in less pathetic news ummmm...I finally figured out how to use a gameboy emulator!

I guess this news is actually not at all less pathetic.

Anyways I downloaded one and also the ROMs for a few of the original pokemon games. Plus some harvest moon game I have not played before.

I finally get to play Yellow properly 6 u 9 (we lost the hard copy after I had only gotten past the first gym). If anybody has suggestions for games I should try to find the ROMs for, go ahead? I LOVE MONSTER GAMES. I'm already intending to have a look for those tele...whatever games, the ones that kept getting bootleg translated and sold as 'pokemon jade' and 'pokemon black' back before there was a real Pokemon Black. I hear there is a ROM out now of the Pokemon Jade version.

Doing some baking tonight per Paige's request. She wants to feed her sectional. Still have a lot of shortening I think, so will probably make snickerdoodles and some sugar cookies. Does shortening go bad...?

Maybe I'll also make some nutella brownies. I haven't made those in awhile.
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Troublingly, I haven't seen any of the 'usual' local faeries around. The ones that I drew before. I'd been telling myself it's because I haven't been in the woods much, and they've been keeping out of the yard as requested. But it's getting towards fall and they're usually much more active around this time, and they're just...not around. I've been out in the woods a few times, hoping to make contact, as I decided to do. They're not there. The woods are empty.

Or rather, they were. I just saw something in there. It was very dark in color, almost black I think. That's about all I could tell =/ it made me very nervous to see it - I was watching it through the window, and I think it might have been looking back at me, even though it was down in the woods. I couldn't see any face or eyes but I got the impression I was looking at its face anyways.

Also, shortly before leaving for China, I had gotten the impression there was something on the large rock at the edge of the woods - the entrance to the 'corridor' that leads to the now-dead tree. That tried to eat me. There has to be a simpler way of referencing that incident, but although I've found a few other incidents of minor encounters with these sorts of trees, I can't find any folklore that seems to directly reference it. I've labeled them 'singing trees' to myself, but my personal labels are not very helpful, as they are meant to categorize reported phenomena and my own theories, not be applied to the actual reality. (Some other faerie creatures and phenomena I have personal labels for are 'the storyteller(s)', 'chickenfeet' and 'following'. Anybody care to guess what they might refer to? If you've done any independent faerie research yourself? IDK that any of you have :P I just thought it would be neat if you could guess.)

Okay, back to what I was actually talking about. I got the sense that something was on or standing directly behind the rock; it made me very uncomfortable, and my eye kept being drawn there, but I couldn't see anything. I have actually not looked at the rock since. I haven't been in the backyard, let alone the woods, since before I left for China, and now I'm afraid to go in.

I suspect strongly that some changes occurred out there while I was away. I had grown comfortable with what I knew if the current balance out there. What happened? It occurs to me more and more that I really know very little. Maybe it's a good thing that I never got to approach them personally like I wanted to. I don't actually know that they weren't interested in eating me or something D:

Black thing is still out there. Keeps disappearing and then coming back. I am pretty sure now that it's looking at me.
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So I spent a lot of time thinking about this lately (and have apparently come to the conclusion that you guys care as much as I do about why I do the things I do). Basically, about why I acted the way I did on Saturday (spending most of my work breaks arguing with assholes on the internet despite the emotional stress it caused).

Are you liking the parentheses? I am thinking of concluding all of my thoughts with parenthetical clauses from now on (jk, jk).

Okay, srsface now:
Warning for brief mention of being suicidal )

So yes. That was a journey into introspection for me, which I thought some of you might find at least tangentially interesting.

In other news, I think I've actually narrowed my choices down to two names: Sydney and Cortland. I'm not going to rush into choosing though, since I learned my lesson last time after investing so much into Christian and then realizing I didn't like it at all. Although I think part of that mistake was my initial euphoria of 'OH MY GOD I CAN FINALLY HAVE A NAME THAT IS ACTUALLY ME'. As opposed to my current name which I just feel is something that people call me. Kind of like they're whistling at me like I'm a dog. Which is terrible, but I realized that's really how I feel about it, and it's why I'm not really participating in the ontdcreepy facebook page even though I want to...because obviously the only thing they have to call me by is my first name. Ugh.

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