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Ugh, I feel like a zombie right now.

I didn't manage to get to sleep until 7AM this morning...still got up at 1PM for my class, but not because I set my alarm. I just woke myself up, and was feeling a bit of anxiety as I did so, I think I was having bad dreams.

Now I've tried a few times to take some naps to make up for that...I'm having terrible dreams.

cut because content might be upsetting/triggering - involves threatened violence towards a pregnant woman )
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[livejournal.com profile] ocelotofdoom and I were discussing various aspects of 'faith healing' cults in all their forms (we started off talking about gay camps and I think that's where we ended, too) and this video is apropos to the discussion so I figured I would SHARE IT WITH EVERYWANNNN

That's Benny Hinn, he's an evangelist leader. As you can see, he engages in a laying-on-of-hands (or not, as it may be...I think he might be trying to avoid lawsuits, or just enjoys the impressiveness of force-shoving people to the floor) faith healing.

If you are wondering how this works...he's inducing a deep state of submission in his audience. This is the same state you see in people who have been hypnotized, 'regressed to infancy', etc. The interesting thing about this state is that it must be entered consensually (thus why these tricks do not work on true non-believers) but once you're there, it is very difficult to get back out on your own, nigh impossible for many people.

But anyways - here are the signs to look for if you are wondering if something like this is a product of an induced submissive state:

  • the leader has a set of commands that he makes sure the people he is working with will understand; either by outlining what they mean ahead of time, or immediately before giving the command; or by only targetting people they know are big enough fans of them to be able to anticipate what they should do when he does certain things (as is probably the case with Mr. Hinn - the people he is healing know that 'when he pushes at me, I fall down').
  • there is some way of priming the audience, and then in particular the targets; a hypnotist show is the easiest example for this as they are well-structured - the performer will start off by joking, 'getting to know' the audience, etc. to make himself appear more charismatic and get attention focused on him. Then he will have a short routine to put people under (the one I see used most frequently is something like counting backwards from 5) that he will tell you ahead of time is supposed to hypnotize you. Faith healers are more likely to start off with lots of prayer, chanting, etc. which is even more effective.
  • they only pick voluntary targets. I'm sure there are situations in which an involuntary person can be put into a submissive state, but it would probably require a lot of mental wearing-down first, and probably an inclination to slip into the state as a defense mechanism.

Of course, please keep in mind that I'm not saying this is a bad thing. I have nothing against hypnotists, or in general inducing a submissive state for the fun and profit of everybody involved. It's not harmful and it's a normal function of the human psyche, for whatever reason. It's just good to be aware that that is what's going on, I think. If somebody's lying to you about what they're attempting to do to you or other people, that's when you should maybe start being wary. Submissive state induction has no place in real therapeutic practices and is in fact the primary way in which false memories are manufactured (see: the Satanic Panic, which used these tactics under the 'regression' misnomer that has been popularized).

ihu body

Jan. 23rd, 2012 03:03 pm
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[livejournal.com profile] outdatedclocks has pointed out that my lower-back/hip problems, and my leg problems, are probably all related to the issues I have with my feet (lack of arches?). I've been making do with CVS-brand arch support pads, but they're not really enough, and I'd like to be able to do some cardio and upper-body stuff again, which I can't really now since my back hurts alllll the time. I'd been putting off talking to my doctor about it because of my terrible experiences with my last one...even though this one's shown no indication she's suddenly going to go all 'you're lying, you must be sneaking nachos in the middle of the night, fatty' on me. In fact, she'll probably be happy to help me out, since she wants me exercising before I go on T since I have a genetic disposition towards hypertension (dad's been hospitalized for it).

BTW, for those curious about the whole doctor saga, since I've posted it around a few places but not actually here at my main journal I think (since I just realized last night [livejournal.com profile] ocelotofdoom had never read the whole thing)...I submitted the whole thing to First, Do No Harm (excellent blog BTW) so you can read it here (it's so long I don't see a need to copy+paste it here P:)

Speaking of [livejournal.com profile] ocelotofdoom, we might be hanging out this weekend :D or rather, probably are. I am still working out the logistics, I think I'll stay on campus this weekend and take the train into the city. It would mean missing a therapy appointment, but I've skipped weeks in the past (or rather, therapist has cancelled on me) so I know it won't do any damage emotionally or to my comfort level with him.

Okay I really should go to class 6 u 9;;

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Why is it not snowing yet though, my life is so sad I need snow to bake Christmas cookies properly!

Anyways here are the plans thus far!

  • Sugar cookies (new recipe! Because the one I have been using...sucks. I will be making some alterations to this one as well to make them a bit sweeter, also maybe almond extract rather than/in addition to vanilla?)
  • Chocolate sugar cookies (same recipe as always because they are tasty and also Tophercrack)
  • Shortbread cookies with OUR NEW COOKIE PRESS OH MY GOD I AM SO EXCITED and we are dipping some in chocolate and omggggg
  • Stained Glass cookies
  • Gingerbread cookies probably?
  • SNICKERDOODLES and not-snickerdoodles especially for Topher but I will probably eat a bunch as well

I'm probably forgetting some but anyways tonight I am starting by baking some of these to test if they can be altered slightly to make good gift jar cookies. Just going to see if the malt can be added at the same time as the other dry ingredients. I suspect it will be fine.


I wonder if Joanne's sells edible markers?!


Sep. 6th, 2011 10:18 pm
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Went to see a comedian on campus with my roommate 8D



Last year I would have just laid around in my room like a shy slug lol

'srry I would like to but this is where I live ;n; no scary ppl or loud noise'

But we went and it was TONS OF FUN and we both had umbrellas (I had my best one that I bought in China) so we looked super cool together

And the comedian was SUPER FUNNY and only a little privilegebutt so I enjoyed it. Apparently he's been on Late Night with Conan O'Brien sooo probably pretty good. His name was Michael somethingorother but ANYWAYS

It was a lot of fun and there was rain and it is not as hot anymore

And I can enjoy social contact even when miserable from period (ow) and surrounded by freshman (they got ~paw points for going to it b/c first week stuff is technically orientation events even thou there's comedians and such throughout the year) (some of them tried to start a slow clap omfg such highschoolers luckily it did not get far & the freshman closest us had their unimpress face on)

Anyways yeah see icon for current expression/general summary of my life

I almost didn't go you know, it's because I forgot to read my tarot cards this morning. EVERY SINGLE MORNING I HAVE TO they would have reminded me to do this and not be so scr.

Tomorrow is first day of classes! Barely remember what I am taking, not very excited about any of it except Psychology of Learning kind of. This is part of why I decided to change my major, school should not be a chore for me of all people


Jul. 13th, 2011 01:30 pm
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Sorry, the original title made me feel pretentious so you get that instead~

First of all, more photos! For those of you looking at them, which I assume there must be at least one because somebody faved one of the photos. Was it one of you guys?! IDK I was caught a bit by surprise by it?

Anyways in other other news (I did just skip the other news because it was boring SPSS stuff...you guys want to hear me complain more about the professor? DIDN'T THINK SOOO) I did in fact see the crap going down in that [livejournal.com profile] transgender post, but decided not to get involved due to my current emotional condition being fragile already lately, and my internet access being so limited.

And I'm not going to really respond to it here either because it feels kind of like airing dirty laundry in public somehow despite it being a public post, and besides which I'm pretty crap about speaking on feminist topics and you really should go read an actual woman's feminist blog for that kind of thing. Because first of all I'm a guy, and second of all I only recently pulled my head out of my ass about feminism (I had a reason but it doesn't really matter) so I'm not really educated on it enough to say anything really worthwhile, especially not compared to everything that's already out there. Written by women. Who do in fact know best what they're talking about wrt feminism. Go read that stuff.

So basically what I was going to say is just that I was actually already planning on talking about some of the themes that came up in that discussion that's going on, especially re: my male privilege as an FtM guy, so I just wanted to assure you guys that that's...coming. Sometime. Not right now because as you might be able to tell I'm still kind of frazzled, and probably not until I get back (23rd?). But maybe sooner than that since we have two days to kill in Beijing and no more touristy places to go, and Ying just up and finished tabulating all the surveys tonight, which is not what I expected when she asked me to show her how to do it. I seriously thought I was doing all of those like, tomorrow. How is she so awesome?!

Okay final thoughts for tonight:

[12:19] Amanda: so are you liking Cortland?
[12:19] Me: kind of
[12:19] Me: especially cause
[12:19] Me: i like
[12:19] Me: cortie
[12:19] Me: as a nickname
[12:19] Me: i know it si dorky but i am a dork

IT SI DORKY, says the man who quoted the first X-Men movie in his last serious post. Does that make me the expert on dorky, or too much of a dork to rule on such matters?

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