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So, I've suspected for awhile that my extreme discomfort sleeping in this dorm room alone isn't related only to the activity that harassed me in the other room last year, but also had to do with the way the rooms are constructed; I've been sleeping with my door open to the common room, and have been able to sleep quite well. This has nothing to do with light, since I've always had the blinds on my window open (the streetlights outside keep it quite bright) and the common room lights are often off, although lately suitemates put up some pretty Christmas lights.
This was somewhat confirmed last night when I went to go to bed and immediately started visualizing a demonic pig. The image was rather insistent, but it was also obvious I wasn't 'seeing' anything that was actually there, I think it's just an image my mind has picked up as scary lately (some pigs are awesome, others are terrifying :c). It took me awhile to realize - I had forgotten to open the door. Once I did that, I was relaxed and easily able to sleep.
And yeah, I can see the potential confirmation bias here; maybe, you think, there have been many nights on which I've forgotten to open the door, and I only noticed this time. Well, it is possible; but I have to shut the door every morning (to get dressed) and don't remember finding it already shut on any morning.
The best theory I have for why the room makes me uncomfortable is that the walls are all cement blocks. It could be something like how that affects the temperature of the room, or sounds echoed inside the room or muffled from outside. It could also be that the walls block the empathic ties I usually have with the people around me; I can usually sense people even several rooms over. Not being able to do that might be disorienting for me?
Anyways. Musicshare! I am in love with this song right now. And anything else Miku-tan ever sang ever, but this one has piano.
This was somewhat confirmed last night when I went to go to bed and immediately started visualizing a demonic pig. The image was rather insistent, but it was also obvious I wasn't 'seeing' anything that was actually there, I think it's just an image my mind has picked up as scary lately (some pigs are awesome, others are terrifying :c). It took me awhile to realize - I had forgotten to open the door. Once I did that, I was relaxed and easily able to sleep.
And yeah, I can see the potential confirmation bias here; maybe, you think, there have been many nights on which I've forgotten to open the door, and I only noticed this time. Well, it is possible; but I have to shut the door every morning (to get dressed) and don't remember finding it already shut on any morning.
The best theory I have for why the room makes me uncomfortable is that the walls are all cement blocks. It could be something like how that affects the temperature of the room, or sounds echoed inside the room or muffled from outside. It could also be that the walls block the empathic ties I usually have with the people around me; I can usually sense people even several rooms over. Not being able to do that might be disorienting for me?
Anyways. Musicshare! I am in love with this song right now. And anything else Miku-tan ever sang ever, but this one has piano.
