UGHH my head
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potato_headSo I just had a very long Talk with my parents about me being trans, what that means etc. (I'd come out to them before but not really...had a real talk with them about it).
As per usual, mom pretended to be very supportive but basically said she expects me to change my mind because I was 'confused' about my sexuality, too (I'm not sure where she got that from, since I came out to her as bisexual; she seems to remember it as me waffling back and forth between whether or not I was gay...which might be how she understands being bisexual, now that I think about it).
Dad, on the other hand, was very supportive. Not much else to say about that; he was quiet, since mom did most of the talking (basically just inane regurgitation of things she half-knows...she derailed for like ten minutes at one point to talk about how some women who miscarry have to change doctors due to memories...this sort of anecdote and 'you know they say' that are vaguely related to the subject at hand is pretty much her main mode of conversation, I don't think I've ever heard her express an original opinion in her life).
Unfortunately, mom is very insistent that I go to the local general therapist rather than straight to a specialist in Boston, because she thinks I need to be more 'mentally healthy' before I 'make a decision like this'. I am honestly not sure what she's referring to - with her, she might have made up any number of things, so whatever. If I need to get a general therapist on my side first, so be it.
In other, unrelated news, there seems to have been some sort of mix-up with my rooming deposit, which I was never notified about, and basically despite having deposited it they did NOT mark it as received on my student account and now they won't let me sign up for my room for next year and by the time we get this sorted out ALL THE SINGLE ROOMS WILL BE GONE ugh.
P.S. I spent quite a bit of time last night coming up with custom Aramii concepts based on Pokemon. Omfg.
As per usual, mom pretended to be very supportive but basically said she expects me to change my mind because I was 'confused' about my sexuality, too (I'm not sure where she got that from, since I came out to her as bisexual; she seems to remember it as me waffling back and forth between whether or not I was gay...which might be how she understands being bisexual, now that I think about it).
Dad, on the other hand, was very supportive. Not much else to say about that; he was quiet, since mom did most of the talking (basically just inane regurgitation of things she half-knows...she derailed for like ten minutes at one point to talk about how some women who miscarry have to change doctors due to memories...this sort of anecdote and 'you know they say' that are vaguely related to the subject at hand is pretty much her main mode of conversation, I don't think I've ever heard her express an original opinion in her life).
Unfortunately, mom is very insistent that I go to the local general therapist rather than straight to a specialist in Boston, because she thinks I need to be more 'mentally healthy' before I 'make a decision like this'. I am honestly not sure what she's referring to - with her, she might have made up any number of things, so whatever. If I need to get a general therapist on my side first, so be it.
In other, unrelated news, there seems to have been some sort of mix-up with my rooming deposit, which I was never notified about, and basically despite having deposited it they did NOT mark it as received on my student account and now they won't let me sign up for my room for next year and by the time we get this sorted out ALL THE SINGLE ROOMS WILL BE GONE ugh.
P.S. I spent quite a bit of time last night coming up with custom Aramii concepts based on Pokemon. Omfg.
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Date: 2011-03-20 03:05 am (UTC)(The designer gave me permission a few months ago to make the Field of Flowers pherra and to design my own mate for it. I haven't done it yet but someday I will :-)
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Date: 2011-03-20 03:49 am (UTC)That Field of Flowers pherra is pretty :D I would personally like to see it in like, a 50/60's wallpaper sort of design...like all in shades of yellow or pink, or like pink and green lmfao.
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Date: 2011-03-20 04:24 am (UTC)I can definitely think for some I'd want. OMG MAKE A RAPIDASH!! I totally demand one.
My biggest passion, sadly, is Umbreon and I doubt you could make him :-( Omg but if you could get like an artistic interperetation... with jancuars...
Although Vapereon could just as easily be a teoki I suppose. I bet you could make Leafeon and Glaceon jancs that would breed really well together. OH MY GOD YOU COULD TOTALLY MAKE IT WORK!! *hyperventilates*
Hah yeah... I hate splatter usually but it works so well on the pherra for that design. I was thinking of doing a pastelly version of the origional design, to be honest. Will have to see, if I ever do make it :-)
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Date: 2011-03-20 07:20 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-20 07:27 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2011-03-20 08:23 am (UTC)First: Leafeon (http://i422.photobucket.com/albums/pp302/tanzelt/leafeon.png) and Glaceon (http://i422.photobucket.com/albums/pp302/tanzelt/glaceon.png). I didn't save the pup predictions but they're very pretty :D
For Umbreon (http://i422.photobucket.com/albums/pp302/tanzelt/umbreon.png) swirl seemed to fit best. I'm also thinking about an Espeon (http://i422.photobucket.com/albums/pp302/tanzelt/espeon.png) mate with the swirl markings just being the same color as the base color; I also tried it with the swirl markings being a darker pink like the jewel on Espeon's head, but that didn't look so great.
I messed around with an aival Eevee because I think it would be wicked cute, but I can't find a good pattern for it. Then I got distracted and started doing Studio Ghibli-based designs instead xD
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Date: 2011-03-20 09:01 am (UTC)Awwww aival Eevee would be adorable!!
EDIT TO ADD: Omfg Umbreon is a sexy beast!!
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Date: 2011-03-27 02:08 pm (UTC)Your mother sounds sooooo frustrating on so many different levels. UGH