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Jan. 31st, 2012 01:19 pm
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You guys I am so excited about doing surveys of ontdcreepy!!! I spent my economic stats class working on Skepticism survey statements. Also came up with a possible third survey, community-specific demographics; or I might include it with the other demographic questions. It's stuff like how often you visit ontdcreepy, what posts you attend the most, what topics you are most interested in, etc.

Also, something odd has been happening. So yesterday I was in my Intermediate Macro Ec class and I had a moment where I kind of...zoned out. It was only a few seconds. And then I had this feeling like for those few seconds I had seen something horrifying and really scary. I suppose kind of like I had looked into hell, if I believed in a literal hell. But I couldn't remember exactly what I had seen.

Anyways the feeling faded after a bit and I basically forgot about it. But then today I was in my Stats for Economics class and...the same exact thing happened. In the exact same way. Again, it only lasted a few seconds.

Now the thing is - I can still remember what was actually happening in the class for those few seconds I zoned out; it's not like I'm missing time. (That's the only reason I'm not worried about these being some kind of small seizure.)

I have experienced this kind of feeling of general horror once before - several years ago, in my 'dragon egg' dream, one of the nightmares I titled because it scared me so badly. It was a very vague dream and I am still completely unable to interpret it, since the fact that it was the hatching dragon egg that was linked to this feeling of overwhelming horror is so out of line with any personal or general interpretations of dragons as a symbol.

Unless if I were to look at very Christian-centric symbolism of course, in which case a hatching dragon egg is a very clear symbol: the birth of the anti-Christ.

Thoughts?
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So I spent a lot of time thinking about this lately (and have apparently come to the conclusion that you guys care as much as I do about why I do the things I do). Basically, about why I acted the way I did on Saturday (spending most of my work breaks arguing with assholes on the internet despite the emotional stress it caused).

Are you liking the parentheses? I am thinking of concluding all of my thoughts with parenthetical clauses from now on (jk, jk).

Okay, srsface now:
Warning for brief mention of being suicidal )

So yes. That was a journey into introspection for me, which I thought some of you might find at least tangentially interesting.

In other news, I think I've actually narrowed my choices down to two names: Sydney and Cortland. I'm not going to rush into choosing though, since I learned my lesson last time after investing so much into Christian and then realizing I didn't like it at all. Although I think part of that mistake was my initial euphoria of 'OH MY GOD I CAN FINALLY HAVE A NAME THAT IS ACTUALLY ME'. As opposed to my current name which I just feel is something that people call me. Kind of like they're whistling at me like I'm a dog. Which is terrible, but I realized that's really how I feel about it, and it's why I'm not really participating in the ontdcreepy facebook page even though I want to...because obviously the only thing they have to call me by is my first name. Ugh.

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